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Mariette Jansen’s life story: how I got where I am today….

Feeling lost Mariette Jansen

Hiya, this is all about Mariette Jansen and how I got where I am today…. and I am still on my  journey. Will I ever arrive?

I am sharing some of my history with you. Just to make sure that you are not the only one who faces challenges and just to show you that, no matter how far you come, you

Right now – Summer 2017, I am happier than I have ever been, confident beyond belief (but not cocky), and free.  I know who I am, what I want, what I need, what I am grateful for and what contributes to my happiness. I am way over fifty years young and looking forward to the adventures that are coming my way…..

Let me tell you part of my story. Because the story hasn’t ended yet.

It has been tough and challenging and I want to share it with you. Because I hope that I can offer you hope that life can change and the belief that you have to power to change it. I am a person, just like you, and I have come out the other end. If I can do it, you can do it.

Where it all started

Was I a happy bunny from birth? Certainly not.

Did I find a magic wand to create my happiness? Certainly not.

My life started off in a very dysfunctional family. Abuse was at the core of things, but not physical abuse. Emotional abuse, which is more subtle and more difficult to point out.

My mother is the blueprint of a narcissist and I know now that this was the source of the unhappiness for me and my siblings. A huge challenge for my mother was the fact that my eldest brother, the first born, was a special needs boy: never formally diagnosed (until he was in his late fifties). He has elements of Asperger, autism, cognitive issues and physical imbalances, which  could not be hidden. My parents were not able to face the reality of my brother’s condition; they were in denial and as a result felt continuously frustrated by his lack of achievement as he was never able to meet their expectations. Anger and bitterness were part of the daily messages my parents put out. As a little girl I didn’t recognise what was going on. I only noticed that whatever I did, it was always wrong. In order to protect myself against the negativity and to stay sane, I developed the skill of positivity.

A gift for life!

Very often positive things find their origin in negativity. It was not only positivity that I developed, it was also the skill of accommodating my powerful mother.

Because if she was not happy (within the brackets of her unhappiness), she made sure that I was even more miserable. And I took on board that it was actually my fault when she was not happy and tried to act in ways that would make her happy. In psychological terms,  I developed an external frame of reference – my happiness was created by my mother’s responses to my behaviour. Both my thinking and feeling were focussed on her feedback. If she responded with kindness (which hardly happened) I felt I had done the right thing. If she was dismissive, which seemed to be the default response, I crumbled inside and felt like a piece of dirt, a ‘nothing’. Because of my fear for dismissal I continuously walked on eggshells.

Now I can see that I closed myself off. I did not think as I never got a respectful response, I stopped feeling as it was too painful to feel. As a result I was totally empty.

I was a lost soul, with a positive outlook.

Eating disorder

The emptiness I subconsciously experienced was being filled with an obsession on food and body image and grew into a full-blown eating disorder. Calorie counting, meal planning, good days, bad days, beating myself up, shame, desperation, disgust and anger were all part of the obsession. But…………… nobody knew.

I studied and worked hard, and was able to afford some solid therapy. I discovered that my ‘darling’ mother was actually a ‘first class narcissist’, who never should have had kids. But hey, that could not be reversed. About 20 years of therapy helped me to find an understanding and acceptance of what had happened. No wonder I felt insecure and useless. Very painful discoveries. And no wonder I protected myself from those feeling. I was filling the void with focussing on eating, dieting, feeling fat and obsessing about food and body image. That was much safer than going into the deep dark aspects of the feeling I had no right to be around…………..

Confidence?

My career progressed and people around me thought I was doing great: international career, setting up my own business, great cars and holidays to the Caribbean…… And then, late thirties and aware of who I was (still struggling with the eating disorder), I met my prince! He was from England and I moved over here to be with him and check out if we could make it together. We did. We even multiplied! After the birth of my first boy, I had to give up my corporate job, which I did not like anyway, and started freelancing and training as a psychotherapist. That was heaven! At last, I could dig even deeper into myself and help others to dig and it was called work! I managed to work through my eating disorder, which was a deep and dark process, and it really helps me in understanding and supporting my clients.

Meaning

I had arrived professionally. I thought. Of course, that was only the starting point. I was always into exploring the deeper layers, interested in theories, in what makes us tick, what will help us human beings to improve our lives . The job of psychotherapy and teaching counsellors to be, gave meaning to my explorations, as I could help others. So, I kept on exploring and studying, and I kept on sharing that as a ‘service provider’. And then…… the lightbulb moment when I realised that all the emotional turmoil, life’s challenges and difficulties, all come back to stress, as in feeling out of control: emotional stress, physical stress, and if you learn how to deal with stress, you learn how to deal with life. The easiest and most effective way to deal with stress is to disengage and the easiest way to do that is with mindfulness meditation.

After 15 years of working with individual clients, I have designed my own coaching approach, which has worked with everyone – so far. It is about aligning thoughts and feelings, keywords are courage and acceptance, and it is also exciting! Getting out of your darkness, finding ways to move forward and seeing the light. It is positive, it is fun (really quirky exercises), it is most of the time not that difficult, but oh may, does it move you on……..

I love my work, my clients, my life.

glamourous me

Glamorous Mariette Jansen

Dr Mariette Jansen – shining at last

And look at me now……. at an award dinner…….

Had I known all this when I was a teenager, I would have shed less tears, felt less pain and grown less. But my journey makes sense and gets meaning when I can help my clients in distress and help them to find the happiness they deserve.

I believe we all have the right to be happy and we all have the ability to create our happiness. It is a choice. But in order to make a choice, we need to be aware, we need to know ourselves, understand basic psychological principles and need to be willing to take responsibility for our happiness.

I am here to guide you on your journey. You can trust me to understand your pain and your desperation and I love to share my lifelessons with you.

If that appeals to you, let’s have a chat. You can book half an hour with me to have a chat and find out more about what you can do to change your situation.

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